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urgh fell asleep at 10 against my mom’s advice. and now what happens? i’m up and awake and ready to take on the world at a bloody unearthly hour. sigh. must listen to mom more. actually was sound asleep… but was woken by my dad puttering around in the hall with all the lights on at 2 am dunno doing what… and in that semi-concious state, i started to think of many things… and the more i thought, the more awake a became. bleh. then had a sudden longing to play with my cards, so i did. then played with my guitar. then logged on and started penning this rubbish.

some guy called regarding orientation. supposed to bring a couple of things to camp. which reminds me i’d better pack tomorrow if i know what’s good for me.

cables cables cables

collected my laptop today… had dad drive me all the way down to ntu to pick it up. also laid hands on a new mouse, a laptop lock,and a 2m UTP straight cable. forgot entirely about the crossed cable until i reached home, so had to go buy myself one later on in the afternoon.

browsed around in HMV for dome DVDs…. saw The Matrix Revisited and got all excited, but it was going for $39.90… what’s more all the stock looked pretty worn and dingy… after rooting around in that same rack for a while, i came across the newest, cleanest, most pristine piece of the lot, and… surprise surprise! it was going for only $29.90. the ONLY piece. apparently it was part of an earlier promotion which had already ran out and someone forgot to revert the price tag of that one. heh.. so i saved $10. also bought spy game.

I have just completed 80% of my site. all the little bits are either done or not started upon. there are no half-done secions. this site’s getting much bigger than i originally planned. urgh. at present, it contains 24 html documents and a grand total of ONE graphic file, which also happens to be 2KB in size. this is in keeping true to my philosophy of keeping the site clutter-free. =) (learnt my lesson from Polygonal Reality.. my old site.)

hmm tired… but happy.

sigh.

met nathan and yonglong at bugis today.. planned to catch a little of the arts scene… what we had in mind was a quaint exhibition advertised in the Life! section of the day’s newspaper. took some time in getting orientating ourselves and finding the nanyang academy of fine arts. ’twas a little white building sitting on a street corner… complete with peeling white paint and a backyard with a rusty fence. whatever happened to making the arts accessible to all when they persist in hiding their works in places like this?? well we walked straight in, and found ourselves smack dab in the middle of a school going through its day to day routine. there was absolutely no idication whatsoever that there was some sort of exhibition going on… so we explored the building, and after a brief comic q&a session involving nathan and a confused student from china, we found the place. it was just…. a room. it was dark. and spacious. there was a video projector screening a clip of a candle, projected onto a white board at one end of the room, and at the other, there were a row of seats. two men sat in the darkness, silently watching the clip, which seemed to make absolutely no sense. (to my highly untrained eye at least) there was some variety, as we soon found out… other parts of the clip ran like a documentary… showcasing a mysterious part of the world and its beautiful streets. then a woman whom i presumed to be the artist came onscreen and started giving a detailed explaination of the places shown on the tape. the only problem being that she was yammering away in some strange foreign language with the respectable gusto of a newly elected president at the podium, addressing millions. that was when we decided it was time to go.

next stop: sculpture square, two junctions down… where we came across this tiny air-conditioned room which served as a gallery, displaying huge photographs from several artists. there was this series featuring nude people in public places, in boxes, on boxes, curled up, standing backs to the camera etc. i rather enjoyed that one cos i found the compositions pleasing. though what message the artist was trying to convey, i have little idea. another series featured a man in an obscene pink satin suit, adorned with gold ornaments and a pink handphone superimposed on historical pictures depicting the horrible violence against pro-democray demonstrators in thailand, 1976. we wore this contented smirk on his face and was at times armed with a bright red shopping trolley. now THAT was some nice montage work, though a tad disturbing. the rest of the pictures weren’t so outstanding IMO.

next stop: national museum… but we found out it was closed on mondays… so succumbed to the lure of pop culture and headed down to orchard road.

almost bought: 3 cds ($21), a mousepad ($32), a can of matt finish spray ($9.90) and a watch ($135).

bought: dinner ($14) and a book. ($22.90)

tiredddd.

Windtalkers

Just returned from watching aforementioned show. for once, we (yl, alex and i) weren’t late for the movie. in fact we were early. in fact, we were very early. in fact, we were the earliest. first three ppl to take our seats in lido 1. had the whole theatre to ourselves for like, 1 min, before the rest of the world came pouring in.

that had to be like the looooongest show i’d watched for some time. clocking in at 2.5 hours, it consisted mainly of full-blown war scenes with huge mind numbing explosions interspaced with quiet moments to allow the cast to get all weepy and emotional and to tell their buddies about their wife and kids. typical john woo style directing… featuring gunfighting ballet, climatic music over scenes of mass destruction, and touchy-feely moments during which a tear or two is shed. the doves were missing this time round, though… as were the ambidextrous heroes. there were, however, a couple of new ideas. 1: that a lone soldier can single handedly take out 6 - 7 men armed only with a hunting knife; 2: the everyone else besides the hero gets shot the moment they stand up. the hero, however, can prance around the battlefield (sometimes with his helmet off) and still survive to take another swig of booze that night; 3: they seem to keep running out of ammo at very inconvenient times, yet painkillers, booze, and cigarettes never do.

bottom line: do you like war movies? do you have a thing for the navajo indians? are you a cryptography fanatic? if you answered yes to any of the above, then go catch this movie. it isn’t bad, but isn’t too good either. if you want blood and gore, go watch saving private ryan. if you want suspense, go watch sum of all fears. if you want a great plot, watch a few good men. if you want wholesome family entertainment, go catch mary bloody-friggin poppins.

The Raven

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
“‘Tis some visitor,” I muttered, “tapping at my chamber door –
Only this, and nothing more.”

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; — vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow — sorrow for the lost Lenore –
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore –
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me — filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
“‘Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door –
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; –
This it is, and nothing more,”

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
“Sir,” said I, “or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you” — here I opened wide the door; –
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream to dream before;
But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, “Lenore!”
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word “Lenore!”
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
“Surely,” said I, “surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore –
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; –
‘Tis the wind and nothing more!”

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door –
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door –
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
“Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,” I said, “art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore –
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night’s Plutonian shore!”
Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning — little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door –
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as “Nevermore.”

But the raven, sitting lonely on that placid bust, spoke only
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered — not a feather then he fluttered –
Till I scarcely more than muttered “Other friends have flown before –
On the morrow will he leave me, as my hopes have flown before.”
Then the bird said, “Nevermore.”

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
“Doubtless,” said I, “what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore –
Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore
Of ‘Never-nevermore.’”

But the Raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore –
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking “Nevermore.”

Thus I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom’s core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion’s velvet violet lining that the lamp-light gloated o’er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o’er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor.
“Wretch,” I cried, “thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!”
Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Prophet!” said I, “thing of evil! — prophet still, if bird or devil! –
Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted –
On this home by Horror haunted — tell me truly, I implore –
Is there — is there balm in Gilead? — tell me — tell me, I implore!”
Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Prophet!’ said I, “thing of evil! — prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us — by that God we both adore –
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore –
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?”
Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

“Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!” I shrieked upstarting –
“Get thee back into the tempest and the Night’s Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! — quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!”
Quoth the raven, “Nevermore.”

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon’s that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o’er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted — nevermore.

– Edgar Allan Poe

everybody’s buying computers.

all of a sudden i know tons of people shopping for computers laptops and the like… it’s like a season. or some kind of IT purchasing fever. i need to get one too. still torn between the portability of a laptop and the sheer power of a desktop. not to mention that when i DIY my desktop.. it’d come cheaper too. i did some calculations yesterday… if i were to get a desktop.. here’s what it’d have:

P4 2.4GHz 400MHz FSB (comes bundled with mobo)
512MB RAM
80 GB HDD
GeForce4 Ti 400
CDRW 40×12x48
DVDROM 48x
17” sony trinitron E230
sound blaster live digital value
altec lansing acs er… 53 i think.
other additional bits like network card and optical mouse…

total cost? only $2700.
argh.. i just need someone to tell me the laptop isn’t worth the money and i’ll be off like a rocket to build this little baby.
total cost?

yay.

went to funan with dad today… original purpose was to nose around for any good buys on laptops. came away instead with a cordless phone ($79) and a digital camera (canon ixus V2 $699 with 64MB card). dad was crazy and wanted to buy the photo printer too ($499)… was discouraged by sis and i. ah.. fun.. shall go play with it now. =)

O.. R.. D

So i ORDed yesterday. two and a half years of patient waiting culminated in my lonely trip back to camp on a dreary thursday afternoon. the entire process took less than 5 minutes. i signed this piece of paper acknowledging the receipt of a couple of things, namely pink IC, In camp booklet thing, NSMan booklet, sticker for the 11B, and cert… and it was all over. at 1508 / 130602, i became a civilian once again. just like that. no fireworks, no euphoria, no hype, no hoo-ha. hardly seemed worth the wait. and as i walked out of camp i noticed things that i had never noticed before. it didn’t seem like such a bad place all of a sudden. i counted 9 coconut trees beside that little shed where we kept the STBs. the washing bay looked pretty empty, and as i stared hard at it, for a little while… just a split second, it became full again. men running here and there, water splahing in all directions. muddy vehicles… lots. i blinked, and it was empty once more.

met choon guan, and nicholas back at coy line… witnessed the rest of the platoon falling in clad in running attire as i went past. thought of stopping for a while, but pressed on. said bye to march in the sentry box, hong let at the gate (if i remember correctly… memory going),and mike in the guardroom. the little gate shut behind me, and off i went.

*note: on the way into camp the RP asked me if i was active or an NSMan. for the first time in my life i was stumped. i had to think… for a couple of seconds… before actually answering. hmm.

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